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I think, barring any major disasters, that i have reached a state of recovery from the great depression of 2011/2012. In some ways this ways this was the worst break down I've experienced - specifically in my inability to take care of myself. I believe the increase to 450mg of the buproprion was the key, while simultaneously bringing down the klonopin. And the change in weather and perhaps therapists.
The main problem now is employment, and not only employment, but gratifying, non-trivial, work with intelligent people who are not passive-aggressive soulless assholes employment. In short, not in advertising.
a job that slowly kills you, bruises that wont heal
I can do this. I can pad the back story, I'm good in interviews, I have a formerly impressive resume. I'll sit in meetings, that's fine. I'll drink some of the kool-aid in exchange for a six-figure salary - just as long as I'm not working with a bunch of twats excited to make a website to sell fast-food pizza to America's exurban robots.
In other news, i have developed quite a crush on the nemby, and will probably just use it up and lament it's loss. It's not a drug one experiences as much as it's a drug that makes one not experience anything. luckily, i wont use all of it at once for its original dark purpose. and god knows what sort of strange cloak and dagger stuff i had to do to get it in the first place. from a chemical supplier in china of all things. the material for a novel is definitely contained in the last four years.
The main problem now is employment, and not only employment, but gratifying, non-trivial, work with intelligent people who are not passive-aggressive soulless assholes employment. In short, not in advertising.
a job that slowly kills you, bruises that wont heal
I can do this. I can pad the back story, I'm good in interviews, I have a formerly impressive resume. I'll sit in meetings, that's fine. I'll drink some of the kool-aid in exchange for a six-figure salary - just as long as I'm not working with a bunch of twats excited to make a website to sell fast-food pizza to America's exurban robots.
In other news, i have developed quite a crush on the nemby, and will probably just use it up and lament it's loss. It's not a drug one experiences as much as it's a drug that makes one not experience anything. luckily, i wont use all of it at once for its original dark purpose. and god knows what sort of strange cloak and dagger stuff i had to do to get it in the first place. from a chemical supplier in china of all things. the material for a novel is definitely contained in the last four years.
